The Ending. The Beginning.

Today is the second of November.

For the first time in...well...ever, this day feels fresh and inviting. Even with the thermometer reading 26° F outside, it feels like a warm hug inside my home.

There are plants on nearly every flat surface, the sunlight is shining through every window, and the diesel heater hums quietly in the background. All around me it feels like like a day to sit in silence.

The dark red leaves that I missed so much when we were in Colorado are still dangling from the trees, while the brown and yellow ones swirl and dance all around the tires of the trucks that drive down these long gravel roads.

You could be completely alone, but for the farms that dot the countryside every few square miles. And, for the deer who are getting ready to run and hide from the hunters that will be here in just a few days.

Today is my second day of yoga. Again. I am getting back on the mat and restarting my 30 Days of Yoga with Adriene. I still have some days where spontaneously crying seems to be the norm, but they are fewer and farther between, and I feel a little more cleansed and a little bit freer with every release.

Meditation has helped, yoga will help more.

Plans also help.

Plans for the future.

The near future, in regards to Castiel and her resting place.

The not-so-distant future, which is finally coming into being.

My way.

After years of putting my heart and my energy into everybody else's projects, I finally have the mental space and the physical time to throw my heart and energy into my own projects.

I left Colorado this year excited for what's coming. Excited to leave the mountains behind me for the first time since I laid my eyes on them.

I didn't cry this time when I looked back at the sun as it was setting behind the mountains.

Instead I simply drove away, waving at the mountains in my mirror.

"Hope we see you again soon!" I called out the open window as they disappeared behind me one last time.

I felt no regret when they didn't reappear at the top of the next hill, only anticipation for what lies ahead.

A new adventure.

A turning of the page to a brand new chapter in a brand new book.

A realm full of new experiences just waiting for me to live them, to grow within them.

New joys, new people, new friends, new familiars, new places. All there for a purpose whether it be to teach or to learn, to warn, or simply for us to enjoy in life and for us to accept.

I hope you sit in silence today.

I hope you feel the earth breathe amd pulse around you.

I hope and I pray with everything that flows through me, that you feel the love that flows around and through you.

A message for those who know.

Here is your reminder to use that card if you ever find it to be necessary. No reasons needed ♡